While I was gone

It finally happened: I've fallen off the edge of the blogging world. I have dozens of drafts. My journal is full, and a new one is halfway there, with an unopened one waiting on the nightstand. I have dreamt things, seen things, felt things, yet I haven't shared them. I didn't mean to be gone so long.

While I was gone, so much changed.

My girl learned to read. Like, full sentences and chapter books, damn it.

My girl lost 3 teeth (with another to be pulled today because she totally looks like Nanny McPhee, and while she is super cute, and while I'm all for letting a kid be a kid, I cannot bear her Kindergarten graduation pictures to look like this:)

My Daisy dog got older and sicker and slower. But I took her to the vet, she was put on what I call doggy hospice, and she is doing better, even keeping food down!

I traded in my Jeep (wahhhhh!) and bought myself a red truck. Yes, I live in Texas. Yes, I might be a little bit country. I love my truck! It's fast and pretty and clean and fast and new and red and did I mention FAST?

I went a little crazy with the shopping. I bought 4 pairs of shoes, 7 dresses, unknown amounts of jewelry, and a TV. Yes, a TV.

I forgot how to cook. I stopped cooking in early March. I have no idea why. I think it was the time factor, but I also started focusing on other things. So today, I am cooking dinner.

I started looking at houses, to buy. I'm still a little shocked that I'm planning on buying a house....a house that I will pick, that will be just my style.

Oh, and I got divorced. Sigh. That's another post all together. Yet there really are no words.
There are tears, sighs, lost time staring into space. But there are smiles, feelings of peace, laughs.

Yet, after all this time, I still cannot believe it. While I was gone, I changed.


Chunky Mama said...

Welcome back.
You sound MUCH happier.
And your girl is CUTE! :)

Shanon said...

It was great to find this post in my Reader today. And yes, you do sound very happy.
I have missed your beautiful writing. I hope you are staying for awhile!
Best of luck with the house hunting.

JENNerilizations said...

If you get your gal a flapper, I may have to break up with you.

262mom said...

Looking forward to seeing you