Maybe too much of my life is intertwined, caught up, stuck in music. I don't know. It's in my blood. I hear songs in my head when I sleep, sorta like a damn soundtrack to my dreams. Exactly like a soundtrack. This song is so sweet and melancholy, and I really didn't think of anyone when I heard it. It just made me melancholy. Until, I had a variation of the same dream about my college ex-boyfriend. And this played in my head as I dreamt. And now? Now it breaks my heart to hear it. I mean, it's exactly us, the way we were, in the end. The silence, the screaming, the heart-wrenching pain of knowing I have to walk away, I already walked away, how can I walk back after I already tore him up?
Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish I could sleep and not dream.
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I also have a soundtrack to my life. Many songs remind me of past girlfriends and friends. I can see how this song would remind you of someone in your past...
Would it make you feel any better to know that every day, for the past week, I have woken up with a song already playing in my head? I ask my husband if he had been humming that song and he's like "No, I was sleeping." It's so weird! Some favorites from last week? "Staight Up" by Paula Abdul and "Steal Away" by Robbie Dupree. Oh, and I don't like either of those songs very much.
Sometimes I can't sleep because a song or some part of a song (usually the most catchy and therefore annoyingly repetitive part) is repeating over and over in my brain. A soundtrack, though, that might be nice....
I have tremendously boring dreams. Would you like to borrow some?
alntv: Oh, so many songs in my head....
tuwabvb: LOL. I HATE when the song I hear in my dreams is one that annoys me!
jewels: I hear ya!
Miss Grace: Yes, please!!
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