7.13.2009

Music Lover Monday-Melancholy 101





Maybe too much of my life is intertwined, caught up, stuck in music. I don't know. It's in my blood. I hear songs in my head when I sleep, sorta like a damn soundtrack to my dreams. Exactly like a soundtrack. This song is so sweet and melancholy, and I really didn't think of anyone when I heard it. It just made me melancholy. Until, I had a variation of the same dream about my college ex-boyfriend. And this played in my head as I dreamt. And now? Now it breaks my heart to hear it. I mean, it's exactly us, the way we were, in the end. The silence, the screaming, the heart-wrenching pain of knowing I have to walk away, I already walked away, how can I walk back after I already tore him up?


Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish I could sleep and not dream.

5 comments:

alntv said...

I also have a soundtrack to my life. Many songs remind me of past girlfriends and friends. I can see how this song would remind you of someone in your past...

TUWABVB said...

Would it make you feel any better to know that every day, for the past week, I have woken up with a song already playing in my head? I ask my husband if he had been humming that song and he's like "No, I was sleeping." It's so weird! Some favorites from last week? "Staight Up" by Paula Abdul and "Steal Away" by Robbie Dupree. Oh, and I don't like either of those songs very much.

Jewels said...

Sometimes I can't sleep because a song or some part of a song (usually the most catchy and therefore annoyingly repetitive part) is repeating over and over in my brain. A soundtrack, though, that might be nice....

Miss Grace said...

I have tremendously boring dreams. Would you like to borrow some?

Danielle-lee said...

alntv: Oh, so many songs in my head....

tuwabvb: LOL. I HATE when the song I hear in my dreams is one that annoys me!

jewels: I hear ya!

Miss Grace: Yes, please!!